Before you — Week 34

An intrepid adventure into motherhood through the eyes of my childless self.

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I am 34 weeks.

This week has merged into one,

with days spent packing

escaping Covid lockdown

and being close to family in a time of

need.

Exhaustion,

attempts to prepare and to focus.

New baby items purchased, received, prepared.

Ended the week with my head in the

white bowl, a meal extracted.

Only to take with it all my energy,

all my ability to function.

Quick walks along the waterfront,

the beach —

these calming environments that will bring

restoration needed.

But this week has all merged into one,

and only time will adapt.

It reminded me of the many times returning home.

To Tauranga, only 2 years ago —

from Colombia where our adventure ended.

Only to start afresh in NZ,

afresh and new in a city that

we have now run from.

AKL to TGA, we now adapt to call this our home,

the Bay of Plenty, where life will form and where we will

make a home for you my little one.

You will sleep where I slept as a baby,

in the same nursery.

Where I spent my first days and those that followed until

18 years took me off to Uni.

It is here I sit, waiting for you.

Trying to find joy in these last moments.

Exhaustion, but joy.

You are almost with us.

Note: grammatical errors and slurs of flow are clearly the result of baby brain.