Before you — Week 31 + 7
An intrepid adventure into motherhood through the eyes of my childless self.
I am 31 weeks + 7. Today began in joy. Feeling rejuvenated after a well spent weekend I was ready to start the week ahead. This lasted an hour or two in the office and then tiredness set in.
Snacks and sugar in the form of biscuits and hot chocolate gave some relief to the overwhelming sense of needing to curl up and sleep.
Baby’s movement throughout the day caused a distraction, a good distraction, as I felt arms or legs or whatever it may be moving around inside me. Certain moods or actions seem to set him off, or chill him out. Music leads to movement, but is that what he can hear or how I feel listening to the music that he receives? There are so many unknowns to what experience my little one is having, he is the constant reminder of the amazing nature of creation.
Having grown up in front of a body of water, I feel at best when I can be near, in, or on the water. I have tried to live and travel to cities surrounded by water and have spend many summers chasing the waves of beaches throughout the world. I have indulged in nighttime swims and early morning refreshing starts to the day. It all reminds me of how nature makes me feel, relaxed and alive. And now I take these lessons of nature, and that which makes me feel good, and I use it ensure that my little one is at peace.
He floats around inside, in his own body of fluid. Dancing to the rhythm of my day. The more he grows and the closer it gets to meeting him, the more I think about this and make conscious decisions on how to spend this time.
Note: grammatical errors and slurs of flow are clearly the result of baby brain.